It is not a task

It is something in my heart I am unable to do anything for my self study. I was not with my father when he had a surgical operation .He even did not tell me because he did not want me to be worried and tomorrow is my sister‘s engagement and I cannot be beside her to share this moment .I phoned my mother and I could not conceal my feelings I did not want to cry but it was greater than me.
I think I will go to sleep for a while to clear my mind then I will try again.